I started crying 3 seconds into the episode.
John's face. I can't. TT_TT
As brilliant as BC as SH all along, and I know this will be the last we'll see BC as SH for a while (Moffat，FYI, there may be doomday, we don't know for SURE like WE-R-GOING-TO-HAVE-S3-SURE!, so why don't you whip it out before we have to survive Dday will ya?! just a THOUGHTTTT!) I can't stop my eyes on John always and wanna hug him and and kiss him and feed him, will keep kettle boiling 24/7 to make him a cuppa when he's slighting wincing in bits of pain surfacing gahhhhhhhhhhhhh TTTT___TTTT I will do that for you John, but I quite need that treatment myself. And I promise, I'm practicing my BC as SH voice and will coo you to sleep every night with, 'My dear Watson, I owe you a thousand apologies. I had no idea that you would be so affected.'
I want fur, fur on my face so it will take care of sopping up the tears. They keep coming!! darn it!!!!! TTTTTTT_____TTTTTTT
I freaking need to rewatch Martin in Office every Sunday for therapy.
*sobbbb* ETA : “You were the best man and the most human, human being I have ever known. And no one will ever convince me that you told me a lie. So, there. I was alone and I owe you so much. Oh please, there’s just one more thing; Don’t be dead. Would you do that, just for me? Just stop it, stop this.” — John at hisS' tombstone.
Most. Manpain. Bromantic. Words. Ever.
I need to stop watching anything, specifically things that'll explode my heart and brain and turn me into a waterfall of tears every freaking Sunday.