‘TIS LOVE! ! ! ! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Eric, YooMi and Sung Joon are emoting and my kdrama world is well again. If I can, I will quantify every nuance they make me flip a heartbeat into droplets of condensed rainbow colored fairy dusts. I need to savor every one of them. HMMMMTASTY!!!
I tried to be PG with this post, but gave up trying over some coffee he is having a few minutes in. Prudes, BE WARNED. I mean look ↓. Gutter is a very happy and crowded place where I (and a lot of you, be honest) belong.
Our id is this dark unconscious place that can not lie and explain all our impulses needs and wants we may not even be aware of, nor in any control or so insisted Freud…and I have a visual of very yummy dark chocolate….or Eric on a bed the morning after. I would tell myself his chest feels perfect to my touch as well like YR, duh, and I need to talk with a shrink the day if I do not think falling asleep surrounded by the smell of Eric feels just right.
The ship we must board is TeamTH, I said it. Keep sneering at my loopy irrational head, I will present figures and numbers, statistics, guys. YR thinks she is blissfully sleeping with her very steady perfect BF/fiance when physically it is the familiar tactile, feel, scent of TH she still retains, unaware. And her abyss of lie after lie after lie being snuffed out as soon as it escapes her mouth is also a premonition of yeah, sorry cute Doc, be very worried and suspicious. What else are you supposed to think with 3 strikes, taking a big leap of faith you have never found out she has ever kept secrets from you, all in one bright morning?!
But let me pitch our KTH against NHJ as properly as my counting goes. He makes you coffee. pt 1TH. Unless TH is very anal owning nothing but dozens of the same shirt, he puts on the shirt you scrambled to cover up just now. Just think of the visual he cheekily can not resist putting on the shirt you just changed out, still warm or with your scent. Slightly kinky, sickly sweet. I give a point. pt 2 TH. I bet it was great last night, too bad you do not remember. Pt 3 (or ∞) TH just because he seems welcoming to..hmm…reenactments triggering the memory to recall such good time.
I ADORE the BFFs. The brutal honest tongue of Sol is crackling to die for and how sharp and sensitive JoonHo is coming across straight, not the stereotypical gaybff in picking up every nuance that needs his fixing, or just staring holes of sense into a cute blockhead amuses me…but not HJ. Sol bluntly reminds him his gf is a horrible drunk who had slept in a park, escorted home by police and his blinddate is cause enough for her to get stinky drunk.
It is killing YR not able to get a definite answer whether they ML or not. We have a good idea YR is a girl that speaks her every thought, lays things in the open faster perhaps than she can think it through a few times in her head by asking the question straight up to TH, a guy she has not seen for 5 years. TH can be a shameless flirt teasing she is as passionate this morning, about to touch her, saying he won’t give her back to her bf, just because he can after their intimacy. It can be spite she does not remember and he can hide behind the vague, suggestive teasing saying the darnest, honest things. It can be toying her, knowing her peeve is stewing in the unknown…from the hurt of the breakup he still can not compute entirely. Of course we can guess he did not take advantage of her, not when she was unconscious, and it makes him gloats she thinks it is possible she can be willing, and more telling she can sense he is still physically attracted to her. Every possible thought of his, it is a way expressing he still has an attraction to her, so at least a point?! I am stringent when I am trying not to be biased. Pt5 TH
I do not want to let you go. Pt6 TH and he is not hiding he is honest.
Just like I said, sometimes…I missed you.
At this point, we know little about their dynamics when they were dating. My guess is he was the opposite of her frankness, and he is extending the olive branch by trying to communicate with her approach. Pt 7 TH.
He is more nervous than he tries to play it down. She leaves refusing to eat with him on her birthday rubbing it in because he is a horrible man, still, to her.
But he smiles. Hm. It is a bit intense, the hate from her for an ex she has moved on 5 years ago. You know you are not hopeless, hate is a feeling, a feeling she still harbors towards you. Pt 11 TH. It would frighten me a bit if this is TH’s game all along with all the coy mixed with honest feelings he spilled out just to get this: she still has some strong feelings be it hate, out from her.
HJ the perfect and worried BF is GPS tracking her location. We have watched enough Kdrama to know he can not be perfect, bet there could be control issues, insecurities, nothing is substantiating the irk atm. It is perfectly considerate to worry about the whereabouts of your gf. Pt 1 HJ. Big bonus point for getting extra bouquet for future MiL. VERY smart. Pt 2 HJ.
AHH we have Lee Moon-sik as scene stealing Mr Taxi Driver just with taking a curious judging look like a Dad at this young lady not even knowing her whereabouts the morning after. I am crushing him madly in YooNa’s Street (<333, but no time yet to marathon properly).
Awww their sms is titled ❤❤❤❤ He wishes her a happy birthday. I love you, thanks for being born. Pt3 HJ
JH immediately makes a wise educated guess she spent the night at TH’s knowing they met up for the phone switching. gosh Pt 1 BFF.
Did you do it?!
She does not know, really. But the BFFs have a knowing guess. All she can do is to keep this from HJ, they advice her.
No matter what the occasion is, this is exactly the smile on my face too if I have these two in front of me.
BFF says the white lie YR passed out in a park and spent the night at a police station. I will give HJ a point for not being gullible, three lies in a roll versus something probable, but since this is from his BFF this can just his considerate attempt to make him feel better, or JH is conspiring with YR on the lies. He does not look like he is totally buying it. Much is at stake when you are worried, suspicious of someone you love very much, perhaps too much. Pt 4 HJ
I have no idea what is going on with Mom and Ahn SukHwan’s stinky hobo ahjusshi. They are friends(?) for 20 years and his wife just passed away. He is unable to be home without hearing her nagging still. We know YR’s dad, I assume Mom was married to, died recently, a year or so ago.
The busybody peacemaker BFF is nudging HJ to call YR, she must be waiting for his call on her bday.
lol Gotta love HJ’s chuckle at YJY insisting her nose is real.
So they have their scar on arm girl, her name is An A-Rim, obviously wordplay on ARRRMMMMM. My shoujo fiend mind is immediately jumping to Dr HJ had a childhood trauma and a girl modelling after the obvious CandyCandy prototype saved his life while suffering a severe cut on her arm, hence the scar and he swore his hand in marriage to his mystery angel since vanished. He aspires to be a plastic surgeon to find his OTP.
Pt 5 HJ! So tempted to give him one for each cap
He confronts her about her lies. He knows her whereabouts right away on her birthday yesterday but did not spill it, did not want to spoil her happy day. Pt 6 HJ for putting her feelings first when he is stewing.
She lets it off her chest everything she knows, the phone switching with the guy at the hotel, drunk and sleeping at his place.
HJ gushes out all his frustration of her not calling him when she drank too much after seeing his Mom, and how insecure he is with her being the irresistible flirtatious drunk with another man. He has fallen for her just with a hot kiss. This is all out of love. Pt 7 HJ.
YR is hurt, she kissed him because she likes him, not because he is any random guy and she refuses to let him take her home. She does not want to see him for a while. Hm -Pt HJ.
I did not mean what I said, i understand It hurt you. It is all my fault.
With those eyes I will give you an extra point! Pt 8 HJ
He respects her decision of needing some space, having somewhere else to go instead of heading home, he gives her his wallet knowing she never carries enough cash. He listens to her every word, he will not call her the next few days. Take care. Pt 9 HJ
YR overplays her anguish, transferring her guilt on HJ because she can not face HJ honestly, knowing no matter what happened that night she was the party at fault. And it hits her with a fresh pang of guilt HJ is ridiculously sweet spoiling her. Pt 10 HJ
That is one professional vet there, I do not know how ladydoc can function facing this hotness. Can I just give KTH a point for being hot leaning?! He double checks the sex of the poor cute rabbit. It is a girl. I will give you a point if you name her YeoHa/TaeReum even when it is too cheesy.
Why were my clothes off?
-Are you going to sue me?
Looks like you still do not want to break up with him.
It takes me a moment to process what went through his mind to make the conclusion. At first I thought, what?! She should break up with him because…of the possible one night stand with you…because she should be with you!?! But he cares about her more than my very silly mind, he has pieced together she was piss drunk because she must be hurt the bf went on a blinddate behind her back. The neglect, insulting her pride, must be grounds enough to warrant a breakup (much more on that later) . Also he is protective of her, still, no matter how high a score on perfect husband material HJ is, he is not good enough for YR. One big Pt 13 TH
Oh…last time you drink hard liqueur because you are jealous of THIS lady as your OTP, you keep hitting your head on the bar and shattering my heart along… Eric your face is telling me you are having flashbacks (fr Que Sera Sera):
TH is jealous, reeling. With every mention of her boyfriend, it stings. He has to remind her she is shameless no matter whether the guy is worthy or not, she was shameless when in love with him. She was in love with him, lest she forget. Pt 14 TH. When there is jealousy there is love, always my motto. What she has is nothing special, not worth to be called LOVE, when she was in love with him once, but as easily stopped loving him just as she is easily moving on, falling in love again.
It is not really untrue.
Ahhh, but really TH, if this really is a fight, your opponent is formidably perfect. He is waiting for his gf at her house. Pt 12 HJ That peeping invisible Love camera pops up and he confesses he is too worried leaving her where they left off. Love is not rational, he has decided to trust her because he loves her.
Pt 13 HJ
This scene of the guy waiting for our heroine, white car on a sloping driveway is so rendezvous of both SamSoon’s scummy ex and another scene with the perfect doctor in WUF…hmmm but those guys do not get the heroine in the end, obvious spoiler is obvious. – 1pt 12 HJ
The puppy is in love!
Are you here to show off your boyfriend?!
Stating the obvious, he is seething with jealousy, or sexual tension, and frustration to see her in a flawed relationship from his pov. I honestly think he could wish her well if he can not nitpick how HJ is treating her (if that is possible kekeke), if their love is so strong, he taunts her why not telling her bf the whole truth, the most important information being he is the guy who she was in love with for 5 years. He is daring her, if the guy is as worthy, their love so real, as good as she claims, she is worth the guy loving her still no matter what happened that night.
She asks why she was naked, he was fetching her a shirt but she fell asleep. How much longing is in those eyes, just reminiscing her passing out on his bed and all he did is calming a strand off her face, all the care not to wake her:
Pt 16 TH!
The more accusatory her tone on why he did not wake her, sleeping on his bed when he should, the more he hides the fact he thought it was most precious he did not want to disturb her even when she uttered I hate you, KTH in her sleep. It was nice she still speaks his name in her sleep. He misses her, whatever feelings she still has for him, it is a delight just to know for TH. Pt 17 TH Just for that sweet smile when she said she hate him asleep. I also think he is making up an easier to accept scenario for her to confess to her bf…she is in love with HJ and he does not want it jeopardized because of him. Pt 18 TH
He is lying he carried her to the sofa, lying he has no idea why she made her own way back to his bed from there. I bet he was going to sleep on the sofa, after tucking her in, putting a pillow under her head. She did make her way back to his bed herself to begin with after all the years, and chose his lap as her pillow.
He did not lie, he had a very good time that night with her sleeping in his bed, a guy she still hates, but fits perfectly in his lap. She has a good night’s sleep too, only she did not remember how sweet he tends to her, still accusatory on every detail she can judge on. It is not like he has not tried to tell her straight up his feelings, once when he plucked her (and rabbit) off the street, again, wide awake, caffeinated the morning after. He would have told her every detail she wants, how sweet and civil he was to her had she calmed down and stayed for breakfast. What he said the morning after was very far from toying her but YR is too beyond frustrated to see through. Pt 20 TH
She had enough, cutting him short again saying their paths will never cross, cutting him short of reliving every moment that night ardently. And we are deprived of why his denim shirt was off, flung on his lamp darnit.
She extends her hand to part cordially even though she still hates him, and they are never to see each other again. For his pride, they are not on terms to even shake hands. In truth, there is no way he is shaking on parting and never seeing you again. Pt 21 TH
You are the most selfish, difficult person to be with.
He has given up defending himself and let the judgmental misunderstanding fester. In the ‘love interview’…all these minor misunderstandings bickering had been going on for everything. He has the best intention, assuming he is doing the best taking care of her, eating all the parts of a squid, a chicken he hates himself, but she actually loves, while she assumes he was being negligent of her. He is, he should have asked what she wanted. I will be stringent even, that evens out, no pt TH.
Safe to say it is in her character to vent out often how much she was compromising in their relationship, while he would not spell anything out. But she would only let him know she is suffering, yet keeping all the little details to herself, letting him eat all the chicken legs assuming he liked them…because she loved him. She did not mind sacrificing her favorite foods, it is his neglect she assumed that hurt. He did not mind the compromising, he put up with her messy habits without ever uttering a complain. He should be cheering Manse ridding the nuisance of being with her. I do not know if he is literally hit on the head or it was purely imaginary for contradicting what he actually desires.
haha the disappointment he is not hit again by ‘imaginary’ YR when he continues his Manse when he wants so much, even just to see a glimpse of her. Pt 22 TH
I love how intricately the token wise sensitive very helpful staunch shipper BFF is worked into the story. We can see in a better light YR is actually a much better manipulator than her harmless looks suggest. Just leaving her CP ring behind in BFF’s bathroom, BFF is prompted to relay the loaded message along with the wallet. I am still wondering why we have the cutesy version of What’s Up Fox theme in this scene… even though the rabbit is a cheekily symbolic of YR, she is actually a fox?!
HJ asks BFF if he has gained any info from her on what went on at Seongbuk Dong (I wiki’d and the main attraction there is the Korean Furniture museum, very very cute writersshi!)
I WANT TO GO!! So my thing, this drama is dark chocolate for my soul.
YR tells JH to say she will cry hysterically every time that place is mentioned. haha why is JH losing sleep over this?! Because of his guilty conscience helping out a foxy demoness bff and very telling he loves HJ more?! lol
Yes I am a fox.
Poor poor HJ, miserably missing her more with her cruel reminders of her things, one guess must be gifts from him. He must have spent all the energy making porridge for her while he has been probably munching ramyun raw. Pt 13 HJ
She is a horrible woman enjoying the juk contented, thumbs up to the perfect NHJ…and herself, the intense love she is tasting every bite, of victory she has manipulated her bf to do whatever her hearts desire without saying. She learns her game, how to play this game shrewdly we call love thanks to KTH.
Awww. He did not throw her snaps away but is keeping them all in his treasure trove box that is not going along with the modern decor of his house and it should bug him, the guy whose every nail clipping is properly caught on tissue (and knows how to properly steam clean/dry and fold a lace skirt and cashmere sweater). We have the first meeting and he has a photo memory of how YR looked when he first set eyes on her 10 years ago. Pt 23 TH
Here because I wonder Eric’s shoulders are so yummy and wide he won’t fit through the door.
He gives her the polaroid as she demands, he steals another glance of her as she leaves the car.
We also have the meeting of our cutests bffs of YR. My subs are saying Sol is the little sis who is being nagged by her ‘oppa’ for running away from home because she is dumped by her bf serving his MS. So, he is just a too concerned bigbro and they grow up together, huh?! I SHIP THEM.
Unaware to him, he is already following whatever she tells him to. Taking refuge in the meal car, away from the hassle of the quarreling ‘siblings’ . He tells her he wants to visit YeonHwaDo before heading back to Seoul. He glances over her drawing of a chair. She loves wood, she says and he guesses right away she is studying carpentry. Pt 24 TH
How do you know?! That is so awesome!
Pt 25 TH Pt ∞ x ∞ ERIC
If she can process a thought, on top of reminding herself to breathe and not droolz…too much. She should have guessed he must be a super popular idol leader of a myth he is unreal.
I just…fell in love with you, this instant, this whole sparkling visual of you.
I think, this is the happiest moment of KTH’s life. Pt 26 TH
It’s magical, she says. Pt 27 TH
You have fallen for me, fall in love with me, love at first sight? …Yes?! YES!?? Really?!
-Yes! Yes! YES! and YES!!!
I think YR has some lethal love potion pheromones emitting from her palms, gorgeous men she high5! have fallen for her left and right. Hit rate 100%.
Scene is so well executed. And OTP is magical and perfect. I want to give TH a point every time I loop.
I must’ve been blind. I have lousy taste then, his face is not enough to flail in first sight.
Whatever rocks your aesthetics then -1 pt TH
I still think of her seeing a train.
Keep dropping she is beautiful every line you are saying about her. Pt 28 TH
I can never ride a train afterwards.
*I love how we have one of the most magical amazing meetcute of the OTP…followed by the same exact duo of beautiful people…breaking up and we are dragged into the heartbreak from the high. Beginning and End, at the same train, same station, what 5 years can do.*
He sees her crying but more preoccupied with their schedule getting on the ferry to YeonHwaDo. He must’ve abandoned his travel plans, caught in, falling in love with her that train ride.
He is overstressed, lack of sleep because of work, he sensed she is unhappy, acting strange lately, that is why he pushed himself to go on this trip, a trip he does not want to go, actually. He has no time and energy delving deeper into their problems when she is at her last straw, desperate and always the hothead, impatient, freely airing out every whim and feels.
Why are we dating?
They have been doing nothing but quarreling…and making love. He is frustrated with all the fighting she is feeling the shame of him wanting her only for her body, oblivious to the wants and needs of the person within.
TH is hurt by how she views him. My take is, he is expressing his love for her still through the physical intimacy because that is direct, easier and just what he can handle. The emotional wrangling requires when they properly interact is too overwhelming for him lately spiraling into bickering, too much brain work and stress he can not afford. He must be assuming it should ease them through a difficult patch she should understand when he is not even clocking 3 hours of sleep lately.
His voice breaks, saying her name, telling her no, it is not it. I believe him. Pt 27 TH He is not using her, he is not trying to make her feel horribly ashamed in love with him. From his physical language I do not doubt TH still loves YR even before he reaches out for a hug she refuses.
Lets break up….I had enough.
-Nonsense! How can we break up?!?!
Being in love with him makes her feel so alone, alone in hurting, alone in missing him, terribly lonely even when looking at him. How can this be love!?
It is. When you want him too much, when you had tasted what bliss with him was. It hurts when it is tarnishing, he can hurt you because you love him. Pt 28 TH
Just as you can hurt him with your words, your take on the relationship he is still cherishing is hitting him in the gut in utmost disbelief why this warrant a break up.
He is pleading her not to, her mind is made up. Fearless to never seeing him ever again, he is reminding her he is unforgiving, she knows very well. He is also reminding her how well he knows she always operate on whims and impulses. She is still not afraid to end it, 5 years in love, right there, with him screaming and throwing his anguish, his bag, desperate this horrible scene will just go away. It is because she has been tolerating him for a while, forgetting how to be sensitive, how to love her madly so naturally when they were crazily in love. He is so out of touch he does not realize his neglect. This is more painful than never seeing him again.
She does not turn back. He is the one saying he is unforgiving, but we all know he would have taken her back right there and then even if she did not look back, but just slow down, hesitating enough within his grabs.
We also understand more about how this strange love interview is working, he is informed of her answer of the same question and vice versa. Her nonchalant about why they breakup, saying she could not be clearer he had stop being curious about her, caring about her feelings and he only needed her for the sex. He has had enough this time. He fills in what happened after. The hysterics, the wailing, the desperate shameless begging she must have blocked out. No need to be ashamed, tell me someone who did not go through that stage breaking up with someone you truly loved. It is his bruised pride he is revenging, but it hurts him still however dully revisiting how painful it is for her he witnessed. Pt 30 TH
It was not easy for KTH being in love with YR. He does not know breaking up is even more frustrating and stressful. I doubt he does not miss her, but it is too overwhelming he does not know the ropes how to handle any of it, every accusation she left on his phone hurts because it is not true from his pov but nonetheless he is still instigating pain in her. It is easier to throw everything against the wall, and let it go away, crashed.
I may be reaching but is this scene meta-ing his Invincible Parachute Agent?! He is parachuting on the job, taking over his Father’s company, annoying the right hand man, his mentor hyung. The only advice from his hyung (and a very literal hitting on the upside of his head): you have to figure it out yourself what you have messed up! All the messes in his life is up to him to sort it out within, there is no easy way out but to crash and burn, learn your lessons hands on.
IT seems like YR is a faster learner, better at soul searching when she is rational. Even though she insists KTH is not a good guy, he can not be as horrible as her opinion of him. Pt 31 TH It is her shortcoming not knowing how to deal with men, clueless in how to tango with them in love. Obviously she regards herself as very masterful in the craft. I tend to agree.
It is scary for me witnessing her acumen at this game calls love. She wrung HJ through the deep end, his mess is visual reminder, evidence how much he loves her and she is glad she is the one that is purging their funk…but she is the culprit of why this scene is created. YR is building a defense around the most vulnerable part of her heart even in love now, she will create stresses both of them can handle and restore the balance like a routine, This is not the first time. All the physical mess can be thrown away and one can appreciate the same old table anew. A clean sheet can easily make the same bed she can comfortably lie in. Manufactured or not, this is a bliss, in a way, we love the smell of fresh laundry because we are getting the comfort of the same old with the sensory reminder it is newer and better, but why soil it in the first place?!
SungJoon, that is why your hordes of fangirls fanahjummas can be of use to kiss and hug you instead when you are defenseless against the meanie gf who has you wrapping around her fingers, and you are wrapping her around your waist. HJ tries to fight back cordially thanking her for the cleaning and offer to drive her home when she curtly says she is not here to see him. He even asks her to initiate an apology, the upper hand for once as she is in the wrong. He carries her from where she can cast her eyes down on him, he tells her to stop her advances yet he can not resist her kisses. Makeup sex (for the nth time obviously) is not alright when he is trying to be mad at her he must’ve said it for the every time. Obviously he has not one say in any of the above and he admits he likes the abuse and making out. Pt 14 HJ
It is a scene they have witnessed too many times but it’s sweet they still can not look away at YR being crazy, happy to see their friend in love.
HJ reminds Sol she is the one coming up with the theory being in love is crazy. She corrects him, she is now very cool, and in love.
She boldly buys him leopard undies she is gifting him over lunch for a trip she is asking him to come along…as lovers obviously. I cringe on the panties alone. This guy drinks from her smoothie, but they are ‘Just Friends’ She must have thought she can act cool and she would not need a hole to hide in throwing away THAT undies, oh and she does not need to throw herself at a running car hoping she could be ran over.
Sounds like he has been leeching off her, leading her on doing everything lovers do coffee dates on Saturdays, dates in library, movies, meals, trips in spring, road trips in fall, for the past 2 years before he just lands this corporate job.
SAMSOON homage. <33333 Kim Seul-Gi you are a natural. I should probably watch more of you in Surplus Princess.
JH is overacting jumping up he is going to hit the dude. We have very obvious music and YR saying the obvious, are you in love with SOL?!
Reality is, love and friendship is now very clear cut, skinship is the basic definition of dating this day and age.
Our charming taxi ahjusshi is back chirping about what he has read from his numerous passengers on the skinship requirement he first knew of 5 years ago. Also, he has seen a lady passenger so dazed she was dumped the morning after, not knowing where she was at (cue YR). He has also given so many rides for students to love motels, so many, you are not lovers these days if you have not been to one. They must have told their parents they are studying at libraries. A fresh example off the street… is his own daughter he is paying her college tuition being a taxi driver!
No luck hyung in pleasing his young picky (possibly prickly from frustration tension we know) boss, shopping for furniture contractor. A tiny workshop catches his eye, YeoReum and Sonamu, Summer and Pine, YR and Sol.
It is not everyday at this company you see your president easy to please clapping like a seal seeing his favorite pail of yummy treats. Feed him the same lunch everyday, they bemused. Pt 31 TH
haha I love you Sol, your introduction is perfect: I am the bff of his very past tense ex right here. That is after the first order of business: it is not a pleasure for her to see KTH, who has been the source of a lot of mess just recently. AND that gloat on his face just because he realises he has a place in their bff conversation is making KTH happier than you can imagine, Sol. Whether we are given a cap on his eyes or even in blur, focus is on his hyung, TH’s eyes are fixated on YR whenever he can. Pt 32 TH
Desperate for this commission on furnishing a bar financially, YR keeps refusing the offer. WHY?! Sol is very snappy, bright, hilarious, fun…just never sharp on the uptake on all human heart matters.
I do not want to have any dallying with him.
He must be only hinging on the word dallying missing the not want part and loving it too much.
HYR, if you break up with your boyfriend, and ask you to be with me…will you come along. I would not make you cry.
Pt 34 TH 34 vs 14
We always get these bokeh filters, halos of light, glowing hearts at the end screen of a typical episode but this must be what fireworks exploding from the heart upwards is like. At least the cap is speaking that for me. What are YOU made of Eric Mun. This episode takes forever and a day to spazz because I literally am so distracted in the middle of typing up nonsense I would succumb to rewatching. Do not ask me how many times, like YR I have no shame in love, this is too good.
YR speaks up about her feelings constantly when in love with TH, whether it is her love at first sight, initiating the skinship at 100 days, or the break up. She was the aggressor of their romance and TH got too comfortable, inertia set in, happily letting her take the driver seat. She needs to express her every feel, he deems it unnecessary, even destructive when they are contented enough. This causes a discrepancy once the madness of falling in love calms down and rationality kicks in. She loves him her brutally honest, passionate way with all her emotions on her sleeves, and when she realizes he is not reciprocating exactly the way she is loving him, insecurities kick in, it is just normal to become more aware, more sensitive more critical in what he is not doing, or approaching it differently, thus hurting her. He must have thought being so burned out and stressed, it would be better to chill on the train ride than possibly instigating another fight, especially when he views the trip as a big sacrifice he is doing for her because he loves her and that alone is enough. She is focusing on his minute careless irks, but missing the big picture. She gets weary doing all the heavy lifting sustaining the love in her pov, causing her feeling terribly lonely in their relationship, and as this negativity builds up with time, she regresses from speaking up about her wants and needs, desperately pushing for him to suddenly takes up the initiative and be receptive, sensitive, considerate of her every thought when he is so untrained, she has been feeding him the info all along and he is happy to oblige. She is suddenly demanding him to re-do how he loves her like his hyung is for the wall when he does not know what he did wrong in the first place.
It is surfacing the breakup is affecting KTH much more than YR… she appears to have moved on, in a seemingly functional relationship with the perfect catch. But love is irrational and it can imprint us unconsciously as KTH did to her. Like her character dictates she has to resolve every unsettling emotion in her, purge them all, shake them off during the breakup with the continued obsession over him, crying and pleading. But once she snapped out of it, I doubt she had thought of him willfully at all. He must have dissected her words, every nuance relentlessly through the years, without properly ‘grieving’ the breakup like she did, he has not moved on. Typical TH, he covers up his residual feelings for her in the five years but once they meet again, it is like he has not missed a day loving her. Because he is wrongfully accused of staying in the relationship just for sex, he has upheld the sweetest restraint even when she flopped herself unconscious, almost naked on his bed. He is not explaining any misconception she bottles up on him at all, because I think actually her happiness has always taken the priority, but he is approaching this second chance he is ceasing following her example of being frank, honest, direct, expressing exactly his every whim of feelings for her as she did, the third, fourth time already since her reappearance in his life the few short days. My bet is he has in mind a readily retrievable immaculate plan of attack IF he ever sees her again last 5 years. We know he is very hard to please, very meticulous at work, a clean freak…I can not wait to see what this fastidious mind can come up with, in love this time around.