The folks who have been annoying me all along are beyond my threshold this epi, I got so batshxtcray I wanna stab at my own ARM just to take out the frustration even when I can see where it is coming from (that is different from understanding). The saving grace is everyone else I care very much about namely YR, TH, Sol, JH and Hyung are staying awesome and lovely if not more! Lets grab them and runaway on our own joyride. This drama is owning me, flipping me on this emotional roller coaster ride every episode through the entire spectrum of feelings.
I have said a hundred of times I love you.
This is why I am baffled by the name calling towards the OTP, how is KTH a jerk and JYR a b*tch??!!! They are not playing childish games, never was, straight forward with each other, operating on every piece of truth and memory as they know. They are being honest with their wants and the boundaries like responsible adults, in love, or choose not to succumb, we only live once. It is too harsh to ask anyone, even fictional characters to not feel, no?!
OTOH we have two goody 2 shoes being more gloating in glee on a datenotdate with ‘no’ romantic dalliance. Again, it is the greenness of SJ and inapt of his acting partner here, the longing and LURVE on his face is not that different fr Eric’s TH but in this context, it is all wrong. I am more and more convinced, in my revulsion, HJ really is oblivious to his comehither towards YR. Young cute hot thing, you really need to work on how to convey platonic sibling love, NOT fauxcest.
He spots the supposedly angelic pair and shields YR from them. TH could not know they have just made up the night before, YR did not tell. This is simply almost his instinct now just protecting her from emotional harm’s way.
They ALWAYS have some form of noodles when together. I guess subliminally they associated each other with an easy effortless nostalgic comfort. He spots her with the bag he gifted her with his first paycheck, the bag she said she is still using because it is pretty and comfy. He must have immediately extrapolates she may be unaware of this old comfort that can be associated with him and their relationship still lingering and from her face remembering, or so he thought.
His memory vs Hers:
Alas, YR corrects him. He gifted her a necklace he strung in a heart shape instead, which she has since discarded. Just like his lofty I<3Us he threw around.
The bag was a gift he bought out of guilt for the many times he stood her up, she correct him. TH must be gloating his memory is still not too farfetched. It is still HIS gift, a gift for apologizing. At least she is still keeping the token of his apology.
YR, you are saying you look at this face thinking, ‘everything that is beautiful will only stay for an instant‘. TH, at least she is implying your face is beautiful, and part of me having a very soft spot for YR is her marvelous aesthetics in men and clothes, true to character being an artist.
Well, let me dump it in one go and get rid of it:
To sum up my frustration with ARM is a chinese slangy saying: 既要当婊子又要立牌坊. I do not care to plod my mind for an english equivalent. I guess to put it super nicely she is a two-faced as observed: top are how un-nice she greets YR and TH, and bottom at (her)HJ, might as well be hers, everything she does and says is staking claim. If I am being brutally honest she is a GTB. Either you be an angel or you be a ‘beach’. You can never be both. You can not keep claiming you are the victim of absurd to you rudeness when you are exactly doing and saying the same shiz. As Jesus said, ‘Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own?’ , and I assume that should be more your modus operatus instilled from the Sisters? Moreover you DO NEVER SAY SHIZ about the steady gf/fiancee of the guy whom you have wronged just on biting your claims you never wants a piece of him, grabbed on a Sat date aggressively, not behind her back for one. Even when bumping into her, it never occurs to you the proper decorum of leading her back to your company, ie HER BF, just to touch base, assuming HJ is not meeting you behind her back sprouting misunderstandings if she sees you both, which how dumb and tunnel-vision on NHJ it never occurs to you the chance of that happening is superduper high and be proper and friendly and truly no stealing of HER bf on weekend date is happening?!?!?!?!?!????????? So nothing to hide honorable of you, or do say your many opinions of her to her face wondering why Dr Perfect has eyes for her…oh wait, I think you would dare doing it and my brain would explode in RAGE, i take that back. And YR did not have anything nasty to comment on you, she had even said u r nicer. All she is doing is willing you to get the hell out of her life and that includes the life of her bf/fiance because she is squarely in it. Lastly I do not want to hear/see the words angelic, good, nice, sweet, kind, poor!her, pretty *BLERGH* attached to this face ever if 100 folds are not showered on YR to make it almost fair, not quite. This is a nasty disgusting woman, I do not care if I am alone with this opinion and saying it out loud. One can fall for anyone, including a guy attached, but you can not go around preaching you will keep it one-way and never cease to smiles the widest, beams lovebeams at him constantly while you are true color all sorts of beachy faces to YR, a woman you are hurting and still audaciously taken aback, expecting her to be nice and friendly to you absolutely. And what crime did TH commit but just chuckled at your redhanded holding hands caught by gf ridiculousness which you did not find that embarrassing and wrong to begin with?! Not a fking thing. This is a senior acquaintance, who offered to chauffeur you home for your safety, from the little I know about honorifics and K social decorum which all I know too well is it is a big freaken deal, you do not snide back rudely as such. I bet the nice Sisters raised you not be needy and have human courtesy, nice doc promises to chauffeur you to the orphanage, you can not sidetrack a needy dating gf shopping spree last minute. You have meant to visit the babies on your own, you should be better prepared if you are bringing gifts, not coyly leeching off the nice doc again yet feigning INNOCENT. I can go on and on and on but I have more urgent business like to puke ^%*^&#^%$#%$&^% END RANT ^%*^&#^%$#%$&^%
To be very shallow, I refuse to acknowledge this as a nicer/prettier than YR/JYM face. You have no idea how many caps I have to delete whenever I choose to grab one with her in it and I’ve had enough this ep. So there, enjoy.
OH I HAVE TO BE NICE TO YOU?!?!?!????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE HELL GIVES.
My name is Han YeoReum…
and I want you to bugger off!
Meanwhile, Eric must be reminiscing some elevator scene in QSS.
My bad JYM/EunSoo/YeoReum. Sorry for having these inappropriate thoughts:
… but still i do not deserve this. Get. Me. Out. Of. HERE! I am brooding in my hotness for barter!
I can realign my head finally, tried to shrug it farthest away from the unpleasant just now.
You are not pleasant looking either, hence you are served this deserving cap. kthxbye.
I love my heroine smart and rational a JoanWatson able to piece together crimes like lies herself:
JH does not know NHJ’s whereabouts other than he is definitely not at the office, nor any seminar JH has heard of or else he would not have nodz at YRzs bait HJ must be visiting his Mom.
Did you just lose your appetite? I did.
The CUTEST scene of the ep. Hyung is so sweet and adorable but he does look like Sol’s daddy and I am a HUGE SolJoon shipper. HUGE, especially we have the oops I have seen your boobies and they are FINE shoujo OTP trope.
So flustered and cute just because Sol agrees to a movie date he is sniffing his kerchief she has laundered and given him back and a nice thank you. Any other ahjusshi….it would be ewwww.
Again, just because Sol say yes to a movie date, you can not fix your tie, it is sleazy for other ahjusshis except you Hyung!
I do not think she needs breast augmentation.
lol is that what you should be thinking?!?!?!?!!?!
JH is not even hiding he is jealous as the interim bf#12 she commanded to have a list of obligations including going on movie dates with her and the rule should apply in reverse as well, insists JH.
I have not wavered much to alterna-ship territory but SJ/NHJ is MUCH cuter/hotter/pleasing to eyes with YR. Even when this is all flashback rosy tinted lens from YR doing her deduction of what clues she has missed: being cutesy playing with food, spending much longer picking out outfit, and spraying cologne. We all have woman’s instinct and it has never failed my kind, especially not when teamed with levelheaded wit.
YR’s gf ESP must be blaring, she needs some air. For a split second I was so petrified she is nauseated…then this could go makjang and she could be preggie with HJ’s baby, especially when Writernim was deadly focus on her QSS homages earlier on and this is about time one is due. Thank you for being not crazy like me Writernim.
But even when she can patch things together exactly the moment TH must’ve seen that pair, TH refuses to spill and be the ‘bad guy’ not playing fair. YR snips at him still so caught up with his pride instead of looking out for her. Where were you YR, when he broke up with his pride last night coming to her studio, with her well being and his longing all worn on his sleeves.
Love how sensitive he is, seeing NHJ is certainly lying bothers her the day after she lets go of her pride and initiated the making up, TH has enough of his pride. He grudgingly spills everything NHJ said to him that night, drunk but painfully honest: YR is NHJ’s only one he can not live without. It is lovely TH is cool enough to respect HJ, and convinced he is not a guy capable of cheating on YR. Even though YR is stauchly not wanting him in her life as a bf, girlfriend should take note she can not luck out on a more perfect ex.
But he is so effective in putting her at ease even over this NHJ dishonest matter which he should have no play in, even able to put a smile on her face WHILE worming in his agenda cutely. I am very impressed, KTH.
I would never keep anything causing you to feel unease from you, I am guileless that way. Just saying. CONSIDER IT
/ME . *smiles*
He is really really cute, smile on your face worthy cute atvm huh, YR?!?!
MY GIRLCRUSH SOL!!! I know you will do things to me, but still I did not see it coming you are making me sympathize with your douchy noteven!exbf with his touching backstory of being a scrooge making ends meet, saving up his army wages for his bro’s tuition, scraping funds to help out a junior’s college fees…and doing odd jobs for a year to buy her a trinket necklace for her birthday, the only present she got in the 10 years being his ‘bff’. She has a point, this guy loved her but has life’s priorities more important than romance, I supposed.
I actually know Sol will say something kickass awesome, a veiled compliment getting the back of her Guy #11 and not shy of still putting her feelings on her sleeves but so over the law-breaking stalker stage. These guys do not deserve to be her#12 more than I do, and are expecting her to be a the irrational scorned woman cliche. And now, dokidoki padampadam hits and Sol is in her deserving goddessy halo of loveliness for her suitors all around, i bet her exdouche too
They are too cute.
Ex-douche says his I am sorry and thank you with a wistful wristgrab and Sol is so cool to shake him off her system.
I thought the ahjusshis will accidently kiss. XDDDD
I love the ‘I Believe’ fr Sassy GF used. I love the SeGa homage but it would be more terrific if the lyrics are changed to That Woman, no?! I actually love the music cues in drama all along, succinct and befitting. Even when cheesy it is good cheesy.
Yeah, lets all watch your scenes breathing in, ohming and eyes closed.
OTP stroking of wood. Erm, for the 3 of you in the gutter, HELLO! Nice to meet you~~~!
How do you play football with bare feet?!?!?!?!
Sister aligns her not to be greedy wanting more, pining for an attached man and she shrugs who?! Me?! NEBER.
At a very picturesque bridge and if this is a shoujo dorama, since she is in heels, she would trip on a speck of a pebble or heels stuck in the planks and he would catch her for an ‘accidental’ smooch. But TH has a less pervie move: he asks YR if she remembers this spot. They have been here before, before the bridge and hut were built.
I think at quieter moments, JYM has some of that regal beauty of a Lee YoungAe.
Nope, you can not fool a YR. From the age of the wood, the structures have been standing longer than their 10 years. Why is he so fixated in bringing back the fond memories of them together, even fabrications, hoping this beautiful place can gloss up her memory of them?!
His plan foils when this beautiful tranquil place can still bring up words like poop from her mouth and she must be out of her mind. YR snides back how can she be sane now?!
TH segues in he knows, he knows her so well. The YR he knows will try her best to protect her relationship, especially since she has failed once with him, she can not allow herself another misstep.
EVEN SO, you should break up with him. *hypnotizing fingers*
haha YR really follows his fingers.
She slaps his hand to cut it off. He promises her again he’ll treat her so good with his naughty boy charming smile as arsenal.
I’ll be so good to you. *sparkling eyes!*
Knowing all that did not get him anywhere closer to her good will, and he has crossed the line, on the ride back, he is all constructive, business talk.
He stops at a fishing pond. The one he used to go to with her Dad he wants to be nostalgic, asking YR to come along. A shadow looms over her composure, but he is not aware, he leaves her in car, taking in the scene himself, reliving yet another sweet memory of them he has with her Dad.
atvm, KTH has no idea this might be the last moment he is ignorant, enjoying the bliss.
Back in the car, she is obviously unwell, profusely sweating, clutching her chest, difficulty breathing… screaming at him to get her out of here ASAP.
And it darns on him. What was a lovely nostalgic memory was actually his last meeting with her Dad whom subtly said his last wishes, urging TH to stop fighting with YR, she is precious and not just because she is his daughter. Dad goes on putting her and his wife to TH’s care. He promises Dad he has the intention to marry YR, of course, and will take good care of her. Dad warns him both YR and her Mom are very strong-minded, TH must be the mediator.
It hit TH then as a bit odd with the serious tone, like passing the baton, as they walk off. Now reliving his memory, the vision is Dad has chosen his path to walk away, leaving this world.
He uses his body to shield her in case of the collision, she dodges into his embrace like it is instinct, but her flashback of finding Dad hanged to death is too traumatic, compounded with the fright of the imminent crash, she passes out.
She ruefully said to PD ahjusshi she should have let go, let her husband live his life with the woman he loved. Life is too short. The last piece of the puzzle must be Dad had fallen in love with another woman he could not live without but Mom refused to divorce him, pushing him over the edge to commit suicide. It was a trauma YR still has not recovered from, Mom is too aware and worried. She knows YR is not really better, she is just pretending to have properly mourned her Dad and said her goodbye.
*YR has a vasovagal syncope/fainting episode precipitated by her extreme panic attack. It should not be life threatening and so WRITERNIM do not go there, OK?!?!?!*
In tears, KTH finally has a much more brutal insight of YR’s words, he properly relived the times he did not pay enough attention to her calls, buried in work, never giving them a worthy thought, a piece of his mind to form any vivid memory, there were always more urgent responsibilites in his life. It could be lack of sleep with only an hour, it could be an important presentation he was terribly nervous, it could be an accident of a coworker on the job in the middle of her call. All legit and valid… there were times he could not possible split time and himself for her.
There must clearly have been days I could have gone to her.
…That was the last time YR needed me.
He has a meltdown, totally devastated, crying, holding her hand. His tears drop aptly on her couple ring with HJ. This is what YR meant. She knew that was the last time TH saw her Dad alive, and shortly afterwards her Dad committed suicide. She must have rewinded the last moments with her Dad, fishing for an answer but never getting any. Like TH’s neglect of her, she must have felt she was neglecting her Dad, blaming herself. And there will never be a second chance to understand, his death will forever be a harrowing mystery she has to live with. She can only dwell in her regret. That shed so much light to her unrelenting brittleness to TH. Whenever he asks for a second chance, deeper down she could be asking, longing for one from her Dad. Whenever TH asks for a simple explanation of what he did wrong… who can she ask to rid her of the guilt of Dad’s suicide? Of course as a bystander we know it is not her fault, just as now removed from their past relationship, YR can frankly tell TH at her workshop she is not blaming him entirely for their fallout, but she can not stop blaming herself, haunted by the image of her Father hanged to death with all the neverending what ifs: what if she had called? What if she arrived earlier?! No question she could ever ask will give her an answer to any peace of mind. TH must have realized what she really went through, freshly mourning Dad’s death 5+ years late. He was genuine in his apologies to her prior, but now he is dumbfounded he was too ignorant to be aware of the intensity of hurt he has caused her to realize what exactly he was/is at fault, making his past apologies ridiculous. It must also gave him a reality check why she was so cruel to him after he professed his love for her drunk that night, naively claiming he is in the hell she was in, he is loving her like she did. He realized in debilitating shame he was so terribly vain and ignorant. It was generous of her to even take the care to bluntly confront him that morning after.
And I love you KTH from the bottom of my heart, the flawed person within has earned it. It takes so much bravery to get to the bottom of the most shameful mistake of his life, and pour his heart out apologizing, again and again, at every time point he has a new revelation of what he did wrong… not egoistically ridding himself of the guilt, but always the priority lies in, with such earnest urgency, to make her feel better. Even just holding her hand while she is still unconscious.
A guy like me, met YR without any intention. I said I love her over a thousand times, a guy who did not know what love is. I did not know…how I could say it so easily, carelessly…I loved her.
This is the moment I knew, I could never have the right to mention the words ‘I love you’ ever again.
I am that guy. I am the horrible unchanged guy she said I am.
Eric is not technically perfect a cryer, that would be JYM, but he is so effective holding my heart captive. I feel every bit of TH’s remorse.
Well, I have screamed at them to go get a room and lock themselves in it so YR will not have to bump into them ever, and I do not have to know they existed. They are sorta listening, orphans in toll. They then have sleepover with the kids, a back to back, heart to heart of woe is me ARM and a sniffling HJ. Life’s hard, she was so hurt losing her ‘oppa’ even though not blood related, he was like her only family. Her life is sooo miserable even woth the caring Sisters and how now she is on her feet being a functioning member of society but no woe is ARM! She is no longer pissed at him and he must be living a great life with a perfect family. HJ goes no woe is me too, life’s hard because i am fixated of flagellating myself over you, you guys woes r matchy. It should be moving, but honestly, I DO NOT CARE. I can not deal with it never occurs to him YR exists this very moment somewhere else, is his gf, to even call her the entire freaken lying day.
YR, you have no idea how envious the world is, waking up to THIS:
Aside: I find Eric the MOST charming when he shed all his macho a touch of crazy dangerous alpha maleness and all’s left is his gorgeous face and those most innocent doe-eyes that never get tainted with age. -end fangirl cheesy waxing*
I should not have gone. I really never listen to what you say then and now, do I? How sorry he is, is hard to miss all written over his face.
You will feel dizzy. Are you ok? I will take you home when you are ready.
JH feels his heart is funky. He knows the thumping is caused by Sol being suddenly in his face knocking the sense out of him with her line ‘He is too good for you, GET LOST!’ , he is going to face the root of his malaise.
♪Could we be experiencing love now?! ♪
I am not well, Sol. I have arrhythmia.
That is the most logical rational professional conclusion from his expertise. Yes that must be it, he must be trying to convince himself most convincingly.
HJ agrees to yet ANOTHER lunch date at her place when the cutie boy pleads. OK it’s hard to say no, but yeah, one guess will he fess up to YR voluntarily?! NO.
TH begs YR to let him piggyback ride her to her house…but she refuses. All he can do is let her lean on him and he holds her tightly protectively. Sol and JH is just walking down the steps to help taking YR in, firing out questions and concerns on what happened…as
Yup, a HJ fuming in jealousy is also arriving to scene, taking it all in.
I have seen 10. I think it is my favorite episode and I am not well.